It can become overwhelming to juggle one’s duties and deal with interpersonal conflict. However, taking a step back and considering what matters most in your life can help you regain perspective on why the daily grind is all worth it — for your family.

Life is never without problems, is it? When you think you’ve got a handle on a situation, something comes up unexpectedly and the problem rears its head yet again, and you feel like you’re back at square one of feeling all the feelings and wishing you had enough money and wisdom to make the problem go away.

Questioning

In the last couple of weeks, I have been riding the wave of wondering what the purpose is in everything I do. I have an innate ability to encourage others and help them see the value in what they do, but find it hard doing the same to myself.

I ask God if the direction I’ve chosen is still the right way. Is my labour in vain? I’ve been questioning God on a lot of things lately. Whether my views about current news events are right, or should I be looking at them from a different way?

Not Good Enough

In so many ways, I want to be better in everything I do. Better thoughts, better wife, better mother, better blogger, better everything — but most days I feel like I’m reaching 80%, and I have battled bitter thoughts about family life which have been selfish and ridiculous, because I wanted to be a mum. I wanted this and I still do. But sometimes it can be hard to remember in the day-to-day grind of living.

And then in the last week, I’ve heard of unexpected tragedies and illnesses which have had traumatic effects, and suddenly perspective rains down like hail in a thunderstorm. The labours aren’t in vain. My rivals are near, and second-guessing myself takes my focus off what matters.

Little Joys

The long weekend has been lovely to spend time with Jacob and the girls, enjoying simple things like playing in the backyard.

On Saturday night I had a mums’ night out where a group of mums (some I knew, others I met for the first time) had dinner together and went to see a movie. I can’t remember the last time I went to the movies. I bought a medium popcorn and large bag of maltesers to share… with myself. I was the biggest guts.

Work Politics

The movie was fantastic. We saw Woman in Gold; it gave me perspective again of the privileged life that I live, as well as disappointing parts of human behaviour — greed and how hard it is to right a wrong, returning what was stolen to the rightful owner.

This, essentially, is the problem I have been battling. There is no such sisterhood in the trades. There will always be a known rival who wants to ride on your wave of success.

Totally Worth It

I look at my husband and my girls, and I know they are worth fighting for. I do what I do to provide for them, and I reveal what I do online to show life can be lived simply — not without complications, but still simply if I choose to focus on the right things.

How has your long weekend been? Do you have problems that you need wisdom in dealing with?

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